Sunday, July 26, 2009

Plain Confusing

I am full of confusion and because of that, I am causing mass confusion in my family.

For example, we really don't know where we're going to be in a few months. The Man has gotten a very sweet job offer here in the state of Georgia. It's not back in South Carolina where my heart wants to be. I am having such a hard time with that. I told God what I wanted. Isn't that how it works?

Humble has become my middle name.

What I want may not be what He has planned. It's very hard for me to accept that. What's wrong with wanting to go home? I want to be near family and friends. I want to go visit them when I feel like it. I want to live close enough that they might even come see me! This is has just about broken my heart.

There's nothing wrong with where the job offer is. It's 100 miles closer to my family than where I am now. That'll make it easier on us to go visit them. It's not close enough for them to come visit us, but I guess I can deal with that or keep getting my feelings hurt over it. I'll let you know when I'm done being hurt....right now, I'm just not there.

Carla-Girl and her family are supposed to be heading to the same area as her husband got a job offer at this place first. I have surely neglected mentioning her lately. They, too, are heading into retirement and dealing with most of the same issues we are. There's a slight difference, though. That woman is amazing. She is a planner, researcher, decorator....just all around good at this stuff. She is the daughter of a retired Marine, so she knows how to move on to the next area. I am in constant awe of her abilities (and right jealous, too!) to make situations work and she's looking out for me, too. I am so blessed to have her guiding me with things like house hunting, Realtors, schools, and etc. I would honestly be lost without her help and patience.

I can't tell you how many hours we've sat on the computers looking at houses online. I've never bought a house before, so this is exciting and thrilling to this ol' girl. Lists are being made of the "must haves", the "no ways", the "wish it had this", and the "pinch me I'm dreaming if I get this" items. I am discovering what's the harm in dreaming if you can keep it realistic in the end?

I'm causing confusion with my family members here because one minute? I'm declaring we're moving in September. The next minute? The kids and I are staying here until end of November. I am so passionate and firmly believe whatever I'm talking about at that moment. It's wearing us all out.

In my Perfect World, everything will fall into place and I'll have perfect hair and eyebrows when it happens. Realistically? We'll be flying by the seat of our pants and I'll have a first aid kit clutched in my hands full of bandages and antibiotic ointment for the bumps and bruises we're bound to get during the ride.

Did I mention my husband accepted that job offer? Yeah, he did. I just can't breathe good until I know he's signed, sealed, and delivered. When he goes to that first day on the new job, I'll be able to shake off a bunch of stress.....I think.

Just promise me I'll have a place to put my gorgeous Christmas tree this December and I'll probably make it.

Yeah, I'm wondering why I'm not on nerve medication, too.


The family said...

Congratulations. I am so happy for you all to have a job and something concrete and consistent. You have really been blessed in this transition. Now...i'll have someone to visit in GA! Now get the man in there and have him go sneak into the hr dept and find my husbands resume and put it back on the top of the stack - please?

Denise said...

A job! And a house! Those are two fabulous blessings to look forward to. You will bloom wherever you're planted, whether it's Georgia or elsewhere. Congratulations!

Busy Texas Dee said...

I'm glad he took the job. Now we just need to see who got the contract for building the plant. Because you know if it's the company Michael works for then I'll be doing whatever I can to talk him into transfering there so the kids can be close for a change. See you soon.

Monogram Queen said...

Scary times, but deep breaths and trust will get you through! I am happy that you will be 100 miles closer but i'd rather you be in SC too :(

Krys72599 said...

WOW! HUGE news!
You will be where you should be, that's how God works. (Keep in mind those mysterious ways...)

Melissa Miller said...

Hello Hope,
It's so nice to meet you my new fried! I really appreciate your kind visit to my blog and the sweet B-day wishes. Say "Hi" anytime. You're always welcome!

Congrats! What an exciting time in your lives right now! I'm really hoping and praying you find the perfect home and you love where you end up living. Georgia is a beautiful and friendly state. I can understand not being close to family. Mine are all in NW Florida. It sounds like you and I need to switch locations to be closer to our families. LOL!

Have a wonderfully blessed evening.
~Warmly, Melissa ;)

Melissa Miller said...

Oops! Typo...My new friend not fried.

You will have so much fun decorating a new home!
Show us photos. :)

Joe and Samantha said...

Oh! So fun to have so many emotions running through our heads at just every little moment- isn't it? You'll do what is best for everyone and you'll make that final decision when the time comes. That is how HE works :)

Cheers to all the new stuff though.. fun fun fun!
Decorating is the best part ;)